When I take on changing or transforming my life I have an initial moment of motivation, working hard to do things, sometimes for several days or even weeks. It appears that this motivations become less and almost stops at some point, especially when I believe that my efforts are not being rewarded. Staying true to my commitment to transform my life requires dedication even when things are not going the way that I want or think they should be. This is sometimes a very difficult task.
Becoming aware of my frustration at these times, and sometimes even the anger, is very important for me. For me the awareness of these negative emotions and feelings gives me the possibility of giving them up and eventually releasing them, not allowing myself to be caught up in the emotional storm that could happen. I will experience them and sometimes find myself entertaining thoughts of actually giving up my Dream. It is at this point that I have to recommit to my Dream, to the possibilities that I can to create for myself and even my family. Sometimes the renewal of my commitment is based on faith alone.
To help stay out of this negative space I have been doing a few things and working on doing them consistently. One is the listen to my individualized positive affirmation CD that I created for myself a few months ago. I listen to this recording for 30 minutes a day now and do it at a time when I will not be distracted with anything. I am also working on exploring other avenues of presenting my music and work to the world and not keeping it solely to my website. What I am learning is that I have to take total responsibility for what is happening, stay out of blame and that if I am to achieve my Dream I will have to stay open to trying new things and just not giving up when live does not show up the way I think it should. There is much to say for sheer determination to move through the obstacles of life.
Dr. Harry Henshaw